So. School is over. How am I feeling? Well, of course happy. For almost 12 years spending days of waking up early in the morning, rushing for bath and wore that white-blue-black uniform everyday. And now, it's all over. Finally. Aha.

But, the thing is. I am more to sad instead of partying like a maniac for this hella freedom. For the whole 17 years I've been living, moments at school gave me the most impact. I've been through a lot. I met my friends, teachers, enemies, strangers that surprisingly too common in my daily life. I'm not ready for the adolescence world yet, I admit that. I'm scared. Towards .. I don't know. Everything? I'm not ready to meet and make new friends. I'm too comfort with what I have now. I'm not ready to let that all go. I love them too much, I guess.

I don't know why but I think my final year of school is probably the best time of my life. The friends I met probably the most real and true friends I ever had. I'm not saying that the other friends of mine are fake or what. They meant something to me too. It is just, they meant more? Aha. I don't even have any word to describe that. They are special to me. Yeah. Special.

But. Wait. Hey, my Form 4 also special. No, extraordinary. I became super close with Erna, Tihah and Nad. I met Farzana, Atiqah, Intan, Fathin, Amin, Hanif, Nadz, Wafa, Izzati, Nisak, Nani. I grew much closer with Aimi, Jiejah and Fatin too. Gahh, I met Ipin, Zaed and Nik too. I don't know why on earth I'm stating them in my post but yeah, I seem to have to. Haha.



This year, I met Atiqah. In just a short period, we became close. Like, super close. Aha. My mom even called her 'girlfriend awak'. Haha. She maybe doesn't know this but she meant the world to me. Okay, I'm not trying to be a Romeo or something but yes she does. She probably the person who understand me the most in like.. a drop of hat. She knew me this year, but she's like someone I've known since baby, maybe.
I like it the most when she asked me if there's something wrong. When she tried to make me happy when I'm sad. When she put her hands on my shoulder when I cried. Seriously, no soothing words came out from her mouth, just a soothing pat. Aha. I'll cry harder if she tried to coax me. Whut? Everybody does. :)
I also like it the most when both of us spazzing like mad about our biases when teachers were teaching. Especially, Agama time. Keke. Mian Ustaz. I hate it when she kept calling my name. Damn, it's annoying. But, being a super stubborn Atiqah she is, she kept doing that. And yeah, I already miss that. Haha. When I told her to stop, she will said 'Nama kau kan. Aku panggil lah." -.- Aha.
She's a cutie too sometimes. Keyword, SOMETIMES. When she went all excited like a little child, spazzing and blabbering about her biases. Hoho. The faces she made when she's bored. The small squeal after got hit by me. Yeah, I hit her A LOT. Keke.
I'll miss her, that's for sure.

So, dear Atiqah. Thanks a thousand time I wish I could give you. No words could describe my feeling. Just, thank you so much. I LOVE YOU, BUDDY!

I also grew much, much, much closer to Najwa. The most crazy, smart, funny, entertaining, weird, bossy, evil, caring, special friend I ever had. I've known her since Year 5 but I think she looked at me as her friend, when we were in Year 6. Aha. She was really quiet and shy that time. But now, she is confident, she talked a lot, no, she talked way too much. Hehe. She is sorta like my teacher. I would say that I sometimes understand her words more than my teachers. Aha. She's smart I tell ya. I don't think she would ever have antis or disliker, like I do. She is likeable. Even parents like her the most, I guess. Haha.
Very bossy. Yes, like how a giddy, cheeky princess would act. Except, she's not a princess. She's my friend. Haha. A very wonderful friend. I really hope I can build myself tougher so I can easily go to her and say "Thanks Wa for being a great friend of mine." But yeah, my guts are not enough you know. I just can hope that she will read this and realize how strong her presence in my life is. I LOVE YOU, WA!

Next, Bynah. She helped me a lot this year. She helped me to handle things, she helped me to grow much better. She also showed me the real meaning of hardworking. She is the most hardworking person ever. Like, seriously. She's amazing. Aha. Bynah is really a sweet girl too. Her parents must be really, really, really proud to have someone like her as a daughter. She is very, very, very caring too. I really don't have words to write more. I've know her since Year 5. She's different than any other friend I had. I guess, I could say that she is special too. Yeah. I LOVE YOU, BYNAH! Be my friend forever, eh?

There are too many of them, so yeah, I'll just jot their name down.
Najwa Izzaty, Nur Mayang Tirana, Nur Farhana Aiza, Siti Aishah, Amalina Johar, Nor Sofiatul Akmal, Nur Syazwani, Annisa Qabila, Nur Baiyinah, Nurul Atiqah, Aidatul Ashikin, Nur Zuhaili, Farhana Hashim, Wan Nurul Diana. Oh yeah, Tang Pui Ling and Nurul Asyikin too, maybe. Aha. Thanks a lot, buddies.

Let us just be friends forever, eh? I LOVE YOU ALL SUPER STRONG.